I AM SUFFERING FROM INSOMNIA AND JETLAG. Damn pissed because I am super tired but I woke up like more than 5 times in 4 hours. And when I finally checked the clock it was 3.51am. Kill me. Now it's 5.35am and I cannot get back to sleep. And I have to be awake at 9am. Omg jetlagging sucks. I think my body stil thinks it's 10pm.

Want to do some productive photo-sorting but too pissed. Ugh.
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Well hello! I've been back for a month and a day and am FINALLY making the effort to update! Haha evidently I have not soaked up the diligence that the Laotian people possess. I'll post a separate entry about my Laos trip.

Now, updating about life because I don't want to forget. (:

Been slacking ever since I got back until this Monday. Haha tuition is damn good money so I've practically been living of tuition. So besides tuition, it's just going out, watching movies, going cycling, going to the Botanic Gardens, meeting up with people and having good food, mahjonging, going to the library and reading.

READING, yes reading. I never thought I'd fall in love with reading again but I have. And since tuition is either at Bishan or Serangoon, I always have a library to go on the way home. Very awesome. So I must say, life in summer is truly awesome. (Shall not mention the opposite. D:) And if anybody has books to recommend or even better, lend me, PLEASE DO. I want good reads. And in return, I can uh, lend you my hard disk for it's collection of brilliant movies, TV shows and music. :D :D :D Besides Take That and RDJ-related stuff, believe it or not, I do have stuff by others.

My summer plan to lose weight is proving to be futile since I didn't really have a plan in the first place. I wanted to swim and run more but my lazy bum is stuck to the chair when I get home, not wanting to get up because I have so many movies and shows to watch. D: More rock climbing isn't helping too, because it's not aerobic. Besides, now that I've started work at my only friend in SMU's shop (it's her Dad's shop but I'm too lazy to type), I haven't been to climbing anyway. -.- And I'm not playing badminton either - it's been MONTHS since I last touched my racket. Sigh. Luckily 08S54's meeting this Saturday to play! :D

Speaking of Saturday, I'm proud to say I'm going for Pink Dot 2011! :D


Wanted to go last year but couldn't find time. This year, thankfully, I can make it. And I'm going with the wonderful ASCs so that's gonna be awesome. Everybody please support this cause! If you're going, let me know but I guess I'll see you there anyway! :D Now, I need to find a pink top. Hahaha fail.

What else. Oh I've quite USS and it's like a very big thing to me, because my last day is 19th June, which marks 18 months and 1 day since my first day there. I've never lasted so long in ANY job (Hahahahaha how old am I only) and to be frank I have mixed feelings about it. But ultimately I am happy because I've finally found the courage (not the most accurate adjective) to tender my resignation and move forward. I've made amazing friends like the ASCs and I hope we'll be friends forever. I've also learnt a lot about leadership and some sort of politics and a massive lot about customer service. But I think I have been overstaying so it's really time to say goodbye. No more free entry into the part, but seriously, it's time for money to get out of my perspective regarding this issue.

One last picture for memories' sake!


Oh and the Cedar Rockwall is (re)opened! :D It's a damn nice wall and I'm damn proud of Coach for making it possible and everything. Best part is current and ex-Cedarians can go back to climb so now we have a new place for gatherings! :D Hahahaha. Well at least for me that's exciting.


LOOK AT IT IT'S BEAUTIFUL.

Except the tiles are new and hence VERY rough. But my hands are rough too so they get a good fight on the wall to see who wins. Eventually of course my skin peels and I admit defeat, but omg it made me miss climbing SO MUCH. And yesterday, about a week or so after my last climbing session, my skin starting shedding like nobody's business. Reminds me of post-CCA days in VJ, after we'd all stopped climbing to mug for the bloody As. My skin peels like a snake too. It was horrible. But yesterday it was kinda noctalgic. Hahaha okay gross.

Went to check out Kinetics and Onsight, two new climbing gyms, too! :D Didn't take pictures at Kinetics (even though it was damn ulu and shiok to climb with the walls all to ourselves :D) but Leonard took some brilliant ones at Onsight!



The walls are wooden and polished (not good for smearing) and the tiles are damn colourful and nice. And there are a lot of routes (hahaha but now I cmi so cannot do already boohoo). But it's HORRIBLY STUFFY with almost no ventilation and the toilet is wet and gross so I try not to pee. Hahahaha. Who knew such things mattered to a climbing gym. -.-

After the climbing session, we headed over to XuRong's house for a BBQ! :D Oh but before that I dropped by Adlin's house to take the chicken wings, and prepare the prawns and squids. Omg cleaning squids is the worst job EVER - its intestines are damn gross and digging them out with my bare hands was like preparing food for fear factor contestants. > < But yay the BBQ was a success and despite buying very little food, we still had a bit of leftovers, which is still considered good since usually there are A LOT of leftovers. :D Then we couldn't take the heat so we decided to venture towards Udders@Siglap. And funnily enough, also due to the heat, we decided to go Ice-Cream Chef instead because we'd walked past it and decided we could walk no more. Haha. We saw our old photos:




Hahaha the childish and retarded things we used to do. ♥

Then FAT met up again (after Jayne's little escapade at NUH) at Novena for Baskin' Robbins! :D



We have learnt that colourful ice-creams usually taste the worst, like cotton candy and bubblegum. D: Stuff with chocolate and coffee are safe choices. Oh and gummy bears should never be suggested at ice-cream toppings. Ever. Actually besides Baskin' Robbins we also had Sakae Sushi, where we literally just ordered what we liked as if we were rich taitais. HAHAHA. But in the end also not a lot la, as we slowly realised we'd overordered. By the end of it we were so full omg.

Another meet-up was with Exco! ♥
We went Abi's house and when we got there we were lik asdfghjkjhgd HOW COULD SHE NOT HAVE INVITED US THERE BEFORE. It's like a small cosy English cottage, decorated heavy wooden furniture with intricate carvings, lots of porcelain, white lace curtains and antiques everywhere. According to Abi's mother, it's like a mini-museum and I completely agree. It's a really beautiful place and we must've spent more than an hour touring her house and exclaiming at EVERYTHING because it was just out of this world Singapore.

So naturally, photo-spamming.


We're standing in her front porch, with lovely brick tiles, low lights and an antique chair made out of a single tree trunk. :D


After all the oohs and ahhs we retreated to Abi's kitchen for some food and drink. HAHAHA the picture makes us look like we're drinking stout (eew) or some hard liquor (that amount = siao) but actually it's iced lemon tea. HAHAHAHAA. And we had them with some lovely cookies Vicky and Abi made. I like. :D

After or rather, during washing up, we started playing games. One of which, Monopoly Deal on a Monopoly board. Hahaha somehow amusing but not quite.


AND WE PLAYED SCRABBLE YAYYYYYY. :D

But it wasn't so fun because dear Jennifer plays competitively and puts words like AO and OI until we were all a bit zzz. I still treasure traditional Scrabble where putting 7-letter words was the highest accolade. Or like putting three tiles down to form a word from conversational english, and at the same time earning 45 points because those tiles were strategically placed.

Btw I really love this picture.

I think it's because it represents how the youth of this generation (I still consider myself one haha) long for freedom and non-confirmity? We want some kind of organisation in our lives but not to be forced to make a decision or go down any path against our own will. We are hedonistic and obviously more interested in satisfying immediate pleasures like watching movies and eating good food. I think I'm truly guilty of being short-sighted and not planning for like say, the next five years or something. We long to travel and be free, visit pretty places and take pretty pictures. We want freedom of speech, freedom of actions, freedom of thought.

Yeah and I guess that's where Tumblr comes in. Hahaha.

Met up with ASCs on Monday for dinner and it was amazing catching up. :D Haha we tried to escape Singapore by like taking pictures (or rather, A picture) against an European background.


See what I mean? Every chance to not look and feel like we're in Singapore.

Alright this has been a post. A very long one.

P.S.: Take That in 15 days! ZOMG.
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Been listening to a lot of Adele again. Her music is good for thinking.

So regarding the Maroon 5 competition, Suria said she heard my name announced as one of the winners. But today when I asked Universal about it, they said they'd contacted all the winners. So since I have not been contacted, I guess I didn't win it. Sigh. Kinda expected but how come I still feel such disappointment. Not a good thing to get excited about something which isn't mine in the first place.

Anyway, went for City Harvest's Easter service today with YuMei and the production was, as expected, brilliant. Not as funny as previous years but the set was incredible. The screens behind were so huge and HD it was magnificent. Plus they totally knew how to utilise them so the whole service, not just production, had a very polished and lush feel. During the singalong at the start, all I was thinking of was how it felt so similar to a concert. HAHA. And how I wouldn't come each week just to 'enjoy the concert'. But of course, being a Christian is much more than attending service each week. It was kinda nostalgic but then I thought of how young and un-skeptical I was back then. HAHAHA. I was the kind of person who believed what anyone told me. I am still gullible, but more critical.

I realised that going to Laos will make me miss a lot of things. Not miss as in pining, but miss as in unable to attend.
- Election. I'm too young to vote but all the guys are complaining that they can't exercise their right as a Singaporean citizen. HAHA. I'm just waiting to see if more opposition parties will be able to WIN certain GRCs.
- RESULTS. Sad as it may sound, but I am quite sad that I can't check my Sem 2 results in Laos because there is no internet there. -.- So I'll have to wait like one week till I'm back in Laos.
- Water for Elephants. Movie with Christoph Waltz. Sigh I won't be able to watch it on its opening day 5th May. Oh, and Thor too, though I'm not THAT dying to watch it.
- HURTS. The saddest thing. And it just reminded me that I did not win the Maroon 5 tickets. Sigh.

Can't think of anything more for now, but I'm sure I'll be missing out.

Still, musn't complain.
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Went to the Singapore Biennale at Kallang yesterday with JiaLing! Haha she went to see her sister's drawing:


Huge butterflies there.

Haha the caption for that picture had something to do with dreaming of being with horses or something. It sounds cute because it comes from a child. Sigh which is why I miss being younger. I'm so old. ):

Anyway, out of all the art works, I found myself most intrigued by either the short films, or those which I could relate to. So some of them I really didn't understand, probably because I cannot relate to what the artist is trying to say. The films were pretty awesome (and depressing, the kind that I like) and I really felt like staying to watch all of them once through. But, the weather was disgusting and I think that watching ALL would take too long and bore us anyway. D:

My favourite one, which totally threw me off and was SO HILARIOUS is the Bad Music Manifesto by Song-Ming Ang! :D It's brilliant and so true and I find it so relatable! HAHAHA. I took photos of it shhh.

READ IT. IT IS INCREDIBLY FUNNY YET TRUE. (Hope it isn't too small.)





And the music playing in the background was seriously just noise. It was the random plucking of strings, strumming of some unidentifiable instruments, and I'm sure I heard the piano somewhere. No drums though. Drums would prolly introduce order to the bad music. After taking the photos we stayed for like another 2 minutes and couldn't stand it, so we left. That was how bad the music was. BUT it's so true that if played down at a restaurant, it kinda acts as a good background music for dinner conversations. I can imagine it playing out in a movie or something.

If the weather was better, I think I would've enjoyed it more. The coolers in each room didn't really help and the MAP didn't make our viewing any easier. We just walked to whereever we thought there were displays. I'm not even sure we covered everything. But there were a lot of artists being featured and I think we saw most, if not all of them.


Overall a brilliant day!

Plus I actually read one third of Water For Elephants. I'm enjoying reading again so much. HAHAHA I shall bring a book or two to Laos with me. xD

Speaking of Laos, I feel so unprepared. D: Like really really unprepared. We just had a meeting today which is the final one before we fly off next Thursday. I brought home some stuff to pack, and got the booklets and packing list. SO MUCH TO BRING. If I bring a huge luggage it will be so weird 'cause technically we're going for a Community Service trip, not a holiday?! But the bulk of our costs will be for the holiday part in Bangkok. HAHA. Freaking slack I cannot take it.

Seems like I won the Maroon 5 thing. But I'm not too sure if I managed to win the tickets, or just the autographed CD. I actually don't give a damn about the autographed CD. I mean okay yay if I win it, but what I REALLY want is the tickets. /: Okay end of ungrateful ranting. Thanks to all who voted btw! (:
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After pestering everyone on Facebook Chat to vote for my picture, I have decided to stop. I think I can't catch up with the rest, and the decisions by Universal won't entirely count on the votes anyway. Simply put, I think my graphic is rather nice, and has sufficient votes to make me one of the lucky winners. HAHA.

But the real reason behind my giving up hope, is that I'm working so hard to satisfy a temporary sense of happiness. I've been through this conversation with people and it's true - people of our generation (or maybe it's just me) are obsessed with these fleeting moments of happiness. Or maybe it's because I don't know how to find everlasting happiness that I'm resorting to satisfying wants that are right in front of me. All the concerts, movies, shopping do nothing but let me escape the mudanity of life. It's really sad when I think about it. Haha so you can say I've been emo-ing the entire day today, thinking about how sad my life is.

And the thing is, exams are over and summer is here! Which means no more sucky school and I'm supposed to do everything I've always wanted to. Or maybe do nothing - which is also a luxury for many. But, summer is so overrated. It's been summer break for five days now, and all I've done is watch movies, shop, eat good food, use the computer, get people to vote for my stupid Maroon 5 graphic - NOTHING TO CHANGE MY LIFE AS A WHOLE. Summer or not, I am still unhappy.

And I'm very afraid going to Laos won't change a thing. Moreover, I'm in the so-called emo-mood now so I'll probably be some anti-social freak during the trip. I don't even feel like talking to anyone now. I haven't started packing and I don't even think I want to bring my camera. I will just go there, and HOPE it ignites something within me. Like maybe the kids will make me see colour in life again (like how the pill allowed Bradley Cooper to see life in a bright light in Limitless). I'm not even feeling the high for my UK trip. It's like, life has so much to offer me, and yet when I zoom out and see my life from say God's point of view, I see the same old fucking life. Can I even call this life? Do I deserve it?

I think of my happiest times and I think I was happiest when I was part of something. Like in Cedar, when I was in the Prefectorial Board, OAL and whatnot. It's not that I want to relive that time, but I think I was happy because I was part of something. I created something. I felt important? I could see and feel success when things went right. I was in a process and part of a group of important people. So maybe all I need is a sense of belonging. And the reason I'm so unhappy now is because I am nowhere. I belong to nothing. Not even SMU. I think I can even say I'm living in the past, since all my affiliations are from the past - VJRC, Exco, OAL - I have nothing now. Nothing. I am nothing now.

I think if I died tomorrow, things will still go on. Actually, it's the same for everyone, isn't it? Even if someone extremely important died right now, people will find a way to work around it. Adjustments will be made and that person will become nothing but a Wikipedia entry at most. Haha all I have left behind will prolly be this silly blogspace. And maybe my Facebook account. People will resume their busy lives and maybe remember to remember me during my birthday or anniversary. And it's not wrong to do that. It's perfectly normal. It's just that when I think about how insignificant a person can be, it get sad.

Okay no more thinking. That's enough morbidity for a day.
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HELLO PLEASE CLICK ON THE IMAGE ABOVE AND SCROLL TO THE BOTTOM AND Like THE PICTURE! :D
A million thanks! Good Karma will come to you!

Hahahaha gonna try my luck at winning tickets for Maroon 5! No money to buy so must do all these things which take up time. But of course, I have loads of time now. Hahahaha. And please spread the word, if it's not too paiseh. Ask people to Like the picture for me! HAHA.

Btw, the graphic was made from


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So it's not like I stole it. I did do the photoshopping okay. And I think it's not bad for ten minutes of using PS on a laptop! Haha.

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EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER AND I WENT SHOPPING TODAY WITH GRETCHEN! :D YAYYYY. Okay I'm not supposed to spend any money on shopping since I'll be going to Bangkok but I couldn't help it and bought a pair of shoes. But they were worth it so I shall forgive myself. Hahahaha. I really need to save money for all the trips I'm going for. D:

And I need a job. ):
Anybody got lobangs please let me know.

Gonna watch Take That now! :D
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